The owner of this tumblr has been admitted to a psychiatric hospital, for reasons you can probably guess. She no longer has access to a phone, or the internet, but she is alive and safe.
Please keep her in your thoughts. She’s going to need all the strength and support she can get.
I should’ve just fucking killed myself now I have to wait for a Dr I had to show someone my wrist and now these girls won’t shut the fuck up and some guy is chewing fucking loud and it’s almost 2 and im exhausted and I want life to fucking end there’s no goddamn point no goddamn reason to be alive at all
I wish i could be angry at you but i never can be instead im fucking crying at work bc im a fuck up and im depressed and everything about this makes me cry
i wish i could be angry bc it’d be so much easier than the fact that what you posted makes me want to fucking scream at you im right fucking here bc im a goddamn idiot and i still can’t kill my emotions and what i want and i can’t fucking say anything bc then i always ruin everything when you fucking burn
it would be so much easier if i could be mad at you but now im beginning to believe you lied to me anyway bc that’s all ive known
we all have our own fucking baggage and right now it and everything else is drowning me and i wish id never seen that or that you’d fucking realize shit but no
and i woke up and wasn’t ok and then saw that and keep crying and i can’t fucking handle anything to begin with and i tried so fucking hard but you say that shit and it’s like either you’re fucking ignoring choosing to forget idk or you fucking lied to me and why not all im good for is a fuck and even then im ugly disgusting worthless
you never wanted me did you
you never will
and ive still got feelings I can’t kill and they’re going to ruin everything
and im breaking down at work entirely
i have no reason to fucking exist at all
things dont get better that’s a goddamn lie
im sick of trying im exhausted im fucking goddamn done. Im worthless unwanted shit no one will ever love me or want me and im to fucked up anyway
it’s only 8:44 and I have to go to work today and im already falling apart all I want to do is die I want to cut I want to bleed I want to die I want to die I want to die I hate myself so fucking much I’m so worthless I should just kill myself today
i can’t keep trying. ive been trying so hard but im falling to pieces and now all I want to do is rip myself to shreds
"Everyone’s just looking for reasons to wake up and get out of bed, some do it for nothing but a kiss, perhaps a cup of coffee, others have a harder time; no train to catch, no hand to hold, no reasons at all."
Unknown (via satans-ghost)